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beanstalk_simsWell, I'm depressed again, medically speaking.
I managed two months discharged from therapy, before I felt like I'd hit rock bottom and had to phone up and self-refer. I haven't felt this low in quite some time, and it's upsetting to have so much progress undone in what felt like an instant.
I have a session with my old therapist, my second ever therapist, Liz, in a few weeks, but I don't know what she's going to be able to do. I have no idea why things have taken a sudden nose dive. Liz was not my favourite person in the world, either - I preferred my first therapist, who had to 'step me up' in the system, because my depression was too severe for him to deal with.
I'm terrified this is how I'm going to spend my life. In and out of therapist's office, with a repeat prescription for anti-depressants permanently pinned onto my notice board. One of my friends had her sister-in-law move into the local mental health unit recently, and she's only 11 years older than me - what if that's what I have to look forward to in a decade's time?
I'm sorry for being so glum and things, I just felt the need to get it out of my head.
I managed two months discharged from therapy, before I felt like I'd hit rock bottom and had to phone up and self-refer. I haven't felt this low in quite some time, and it's upsetting to have so much progress undone in what felt like an instant.
I have a session with my old therapist, my second ever therapist, Liz, in a few weeks, but I don't know what she's going to be able to do. I have no idea why things have taken a sudden nose dive. Liz was not my favourite person in the world, either - I preferred my first therapist, who had to 'step me up' in the system, because my depression was too severe for him to deal with.
I'm terrified this is how I'm going to spend my life. In and out of therapist's office, with a repeat prescription for anti-depressants permanently pinned onto my notice board. One of my friends had her sister-in-law move into the local mental health unit recently, and she's only 11 years older than me - what if that's what I have to look forward to in a decade's time?
I'm sorry for being so glum and things, I just felt the need to get it out of my head.
