The Legacy Writer Blues
Aug. 27th, 2013 06:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beanstalk_simsThe Burn-It-Down-And-Start-Again syndrome has returned, and it's stronger than ever.
Flicking through old Wrongway updates, up to the present, to see where I left off and what loose ends I'd left untied, I realised something. I'm not proud or pleased with any of it. I want to pull it down from the internet and hide it away. I want to burn Rubix to the ground and leave it there. Part of me wants to remove anything that shows the Wrongways existed.
And yet, it's a shame. It's been nearly 4 years since I started it, and I swear I've been struggling with it for some time now. Romeo was born in October 2011, and I can't get over that, really. That's how long it's taking me to play this stupid thing. I'm no closer to getting generation seven born in game, because there's a chapter that I need to get through first, and ...
Well, the whole thing just makes me fed up and frustrated.
I want to start again with a different legacy, and write it better - much more lighthearted I think - and actually enjoy it. And actually play it! Where it doesn't matter how long it takes me, how often I update, or anything. Just for fun.
It makes me sad, but I think it's time to move on. I really don't know.
Just thought I'd share the mess in my head.
Flicking through old Wrongway updates, up to the present, to see where I left off and what loose ends I'd left untied, I realised something. I'm not proud or pleased with any of it. I want to pull it down from the internet and hide it away. I want to burn Rubix to the ground and leave it there. Part of me wants to remove anything that shows the Wrongways existed.
And yet, it's a shame. It's been nearly 4 years since I started it, and I swear I've been struggling with it for some time now. Romeo was born in October 2011, and I can't get over that, really. That's how long it's taking me to play this stupid thing. I'm no closer to getting generation seven born in game, because there's a chapter that I need to get through first, and ...
Well, the whole thing just makes me fed up and frustrated.
I want to start again with a different legacy, and write it better - much more lighthearted I think - and actually enjoy it. And actually play it! Where it doesn't matter how long it takes me, how often I update, or anything. Just for fun.
It makes me sad, but I think it's time to move on. I really don't know.
Just thought I'd share the mess in my head.
