That Discontent Feeling
Oct. 31st, 2013 11:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beanstalk_simsRecently, I re-read the Pseudo Legacy, which has always been one of my favourites, and was the whole reason I started my first legacy, back in 2008. And then I thought long and hard about the Wrongways.
It's no secret I'm struggling with them, this year. That I read other legacies, like the Pseudo Legacy, the Devereaux Legacy and others, then look at mine and realise I've done a terrible job of legacy writing.
Okay, I was younger. I've developed as a writer apparently - though I look at more recent chapters, and I'm still cringing. I'm still not happy with what I've done, and it's feelings like that which stop me from working on that next chapter. That stop me from writing up Myshuno prompts. I just get this massive feeling that the Wrongways are just no good.
And I know I have to write and play the legacy for myself, which is even worse. Because I'm not proud or happy with any of it, I don't even feel accomplished for reaching generation seven, which is the furthest I've ever played to.
I have huge urges to start again, from the beginning, and do it justice, but it's been almost 4 years already since I started playing the Wrongways, could I really donate the next four years as well?
Maybe I shouldn't think about the future too much, and just do what I want - design a new neighbourhood template for Rubix in SC4, and start again. Maybe this time I'll be happier with how it plays out, because I'll be more mature and less likely to throw out these crazy plotlines that I never follow up or tie off properly. Maybe I'll just play it and I won't share it.
Who knows.
I just can't bring myself to update something I really don't like at the minute.
It's no secret I'm struggling with them, this year. That I read other legacies, like the Pseudo Legacy, the Devereaux Legacy and others, then look at mine and realise I've done a terrible job of legacy writing.
Okay, I was younger. I've developed as a writer apparently - though I look at more recent chapters, and I'm still cringing. I'm still not happy with what I've done, and it's feelings like that which stop me from working on that next chapter. That stop me from writing up Myshuno prompts. I just get this massive feeling that the Wrongways are just no good.
And I know I have to write and play the legacy for myself, which is even worse. Because I'm not proud or happy with any of it, I don't even feel accomplished for reaching generation seven, which is the furthest I've ever played to.
I have huge urges to start again, from the beginning, and do it justice, but it's been almost 4 years already since I started playing the Wrongways, could I really donate the next four years as well?
Maybe I shouldn't think about the future too much, and just do what I want - design a new neighbourhood template for Rubix in SC4, and start again. Maybe this time I'll be happier with how it plays out, because I'll be more mature and less likely to throw out these crazy plotlines that I never follow up or tie off properly. Maybe I'll just play it and I won't share it.
Who knows.
I just can't bring myself to update something I really don't like at the minute.
