Exams and Anxiety
Dec. 11th, 2014 11:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beanstalk_simsTwo exams down, one to go. To be fair, the worst one's out the way (Statistics, in case you're wondering). That was this morning.
This afternoon I had the exam for my Clinical Psychology module, and I've been best friends with the text book for about a week, redecorated my room with revision notes, and basically just tried my best to make sure I'd be okay in the exam.
I opened the paper, and the first question threw me. I can't even remember what it was, but I remember having to deduce which would be the best option to pick. To be honest, overall I feel that exam went okay; I knew most of the answers. But most wasn't good enough to please me, and I got grumpy and eventually sobbed to Rob over the phone about how I try hard but don't seem to get anywhere.
We discussed it, I feel slightly better, but I'm still thinking about the exams. There's nothing I can do, it's out of my hands completely now. The grades won't be released for at least three weeks, and I should put it to the back of my mind. I'm struggling with that. Really struggling.
So Rob and I decided that I should stop by the counsellor's office tomorrow. I went to the drop-in last week, for the fourth time this term, because my anxieties are getting out of hand and beginning to take control again. I spoke to a lovely lady and was put on a waiting list to see someone regularly, and told to use the drop-in whilst waiting. That's what I'm planning to do tomorrow. After my last exam.
Which should be fine. I did really well in the practise exam (84% is good, right?) but after not knowing everything on the paper I crammed for, I feel like my confidence has been knocked slightly.
I'm probably going to be okay, even on the exams I had earlier, but man, it is easy to worry about things.
This afternoon I had the exam for my Clinical Psychology module, and I've been best friends with the text book for about a week, redecorated my room with revision notes, and basically just tried my best to make sure I'd be okay in the exam.
I opened the paper, and the first question threw me. I can't even remember what it was, but I remember having to deduce which would be the best option to pick. To be honest, overall I feel that exam went okay; I knew most of the answers. But most wasn't good enough to please me, and I got grumpy and eventually sobbed to Rob over the phone about how I try hard but don't seem to get anywhere.
We discussed it, I feel slightly better, but I'm still thinking about the exams. There's nothing I can do, it's out of my hands completely now. The grades won't be released for at least three weeks, and I should put it to the back of my mind. I'm struggling with that. Really struggling.
So Rob and I decided that I should stop by the counsellor's office tomorrow. I went to the drop-in last week, for the fourth time this term, because my anxieties are getting out of hand and beginning to take control again. I spoke to a lovely lady and was put on a waiting list to see someone regularly, and told to use the drop-in whilst waiting. That's what I'm planning to do tomorrow. After my last exam.
Which should be fine. I did really well in the practise exam (84% is good, right?) but after not knowing everything on the paper I crammed for, I feel like my confidence has been knocked slightly.
I'm probably going to be okay, even on the exams I had earlier, but man, it is easy to worry about things.
